Grief is so hard to understand. One day, everything seems fine. The next you are depressed and do things in memory of the one passed. The next you are too busy to cry. The following you are walking in a fog. The next day you are angry at God for letting them die and crying your eyes out!
I underestimated how hard my dad's passing would hit me. It doesn’t help when sick kids, depression, financial struggle, and a strained marriage are thrown into the mix. But since he passed, my emotions are everywhere! I really don’t know what kind of support I need during this season of my life. If you are trying to comfort me during my grieving, be ready for the many different “days”. I may want to cry, scream, reminisce, laugh, talk, or ignore people altogether.
So in this grieving time, I am not sure how often I will write. My life feels on hold. I want to celebrate life but I don’t know how through all this pain. I want life to make sense. I want to be surrounded by family and I feel lost, so far away from everyone. The loss of a loved one is hard. Life just keeps going even though you feel like you are sitting still.
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